Rather unhappy

As we learn through experiences, we have lesser tolerance towards things that we don't want to experience again. We pick things up quickly and we somehow know the traits. But yet we might not know how to react to the same situation because it's a different person. I think I have been cursed with limited happiness. No prolonged happiness but rather only allowed faint happy memories that would only feel so surreal. Life's brings more than a rollercoaster can take, as mine like many other have hair pin turns and 90 degree corners. I always remind myself to never visit the land of sadness by thinking of situations differently and to always open you heart and mind to learn new things. But sadly, it all ends up like SHIT! It's either I am f*&$%d or the other is. I am tired of all these swings and knots. How do you take a break from life?

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh

hungreee

Enlightened about self-purpose and intent,

Gifted the knowledge of life versus personality,

Realisation that it is time to face the facts,

Taking action today for a better tomorrow.

Walking away is never easy,

How far can you walk to forgive and forget?

How long for can you walk till it is over?

You will never arrive because there is no destination.

Let go of it and we will move faster

Let it be and we will live happier,

Allow it to move along and we shall see new things,

Allow it to change and we shall see different.

Let this be the last time this baggage is carried,

It shall be let down and not carried further,

Let this be the last time emotions are placed,

Left by itself with no regrets.

Done it before, it can be done again,

For there is no excuse, there is always a first time,

Look forward and appreciate what you see and feel today,

For tomorrow, it might never happen again,

Be sincere and not half-hearted,

For the past is only a reminder of what used to be,

But today is the start of tomorrow,

As long as there is a today, there shall always be a tomorrow,

If you keep thinking of yesterday, today and tomorrow will never come.

Yesterday is a teaching today, if we fail to learn,

We fail to live and we fail to move on,

Only so much of self pity can be blamed,

The rest is self inflicted longing of emotional pain.

People who wait are just trying their luck, people who take action are those who want it.

New song

Without you - Empire of the Sun

No

No shapes at all

Nothing real or artificial

No energy or heat

No troughs there are no peaks

No hangover from last night

No shame in first light

No time there'll be no change

No colours to rearrange

And I

I get that feeling

When we're apart

I get the teaching that I can't be without you

Without you babe

Without you

No future there is no past

No slow there is no fast

No grace with which to admire

No face there is no desire

No symmetry or peace

No sirens all police

No cameras and no phones

No photographs and no tone

And I

I get that feeling

When we're apart

I get the teaching that I can't be without you

Without you babe

Without you

Come on

Hey now

Come on

Hey now

Come on

Take my heart in your hands

Come on

Hey now

Come on

Hey now

Come on

Take my heart in your hands

And I

I get that feeling

When we're apart

I get the teaching that I can't be without you

Without you babe

Without you

taken from some online website I forgot, boooo SCT! Bully me

To a freaking hot CNY!

Happy Chinese New Year of the Metal Tiger...Meow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Snow how I miss you,

Snow how I want to be with you on a hot summers day,

Snow how I wish I could touch you,

Snow how I need your chill,

Snow how I miss your softness,

Snow how I miss the blizzard you bring,

Snow how I wish you were cooling me down,

Snow how much do I love you?

-T-

My life is like plate of desserts. Pastries, marshmallows, and strawberry fondues...too many sweet things on a plate. I shall not devour it but to slowly nibble and cherish its sweetness while it lasts.

digging thru the grave of unhappiness

Returning home, back to where I belong. To where I grew up and to where most of my sentimental belongings are kept. To look at another point of view would be to describe it as, a whole lot of junk and nonsense that are mostly not mine but in my space. Flipping through pages and reading what I have wrote years ago really strucked me quite a bit. How did I come out with so much things to write about just about 4 over years ago. and now, everything I write is not of that level or impact which I get from reading it 4 years later. Writing about the environment, the world, people, and how much I wanted things to change or remained unchanged. Writing about how my heart got broken several times and how I decided not to pursue that sadistic route and give up without being a sore loser.

Look here, I have nothing to type. I have been having troubles trying to express myself with words these days. I am just so afraid of saying the wrong thing, not that i might hurt someone, but I might expose myself too much and end up leaving nothing and losing everything all overrrrr again.

If I knew better, I wouldn't have bothered to clean up and go through things so thoroughly. Many things should not be read.